It's okay to hurt

I would love to say to you that I am not broken,
but to say such a lie wouldn’t be right.
It doesn’t matter to me that I cry,
and I feel that by doing so I am able to care.
I know not what is to come of tomorrow,
there are way too many minutes in today.
What I do know is how much I love you,
and I also feel how much you love me too.
Hearts are made to be broken by this love,
as all feelings come out of the pain I cry.
There is nothing so beautiful as what I feel,
for you I give my life more today.
When I look into your eyes I find,
what I have never wanted to see.
I am crying just to show you I care,
I am here just more alone than before.
I wonder if this loneliness will ever go away,
waking up in a sweat brought on by your absence.
I am not one to fear yet in love I am afraid,
not fully understanding what it is inside of me.
You see me for who I can be not just what I am,
I am not invisible to your eyes at all.
You love me as much as one could know,
in all ways I am completely in your heart and soul.
I never wanted to break apart from this love,
but to be this miserable is a way of knowing I can.
To feel alive in the death that surrounds me,
in light the darkness is much more than before.
You look into my eyes and cry every single time,
like the first night we kissed under the Scorpio Moon.
I have come to find that there is pain mixed in love,
a way of showing me that I can feel in all ways.
I know nothing of regret for what I feel deep inside,
for you are the reason in my eyes I can cry.
I loved you long before I ever knew what love could be,
found in the waters of a love made for you and me.
Your touch melts my skin revealing a heart so true for you,
taking from the despair I was in the lies in loving truth.
Look into my eyes again and see past these tears I cry,
I am in love with you more in pain, in death, and in life....







Johnny Newell