Love and loss

When I close my eyes I can still hear your smile,

like running waters of passion bleeding pain.

As if I were ever meant to know who you are,

sometimes I imagine things differently.

I cry now to sleep just to hide my fears,

knowing when I wake up I will be alone.

Never do I dream, never do I smile,

as you never came back my world was destroyed.

I see your laughter on the wind,

each gust taking me back to our home.

The life around so beautiful, all things complete,

a dream made in the tears shed so long before.

Unwanted man meets desired woman in pain,

both hiding secrets of a life left behind.

No way back to the rivers we swam in,

only empty hopes and shattered dreams.

Nightmares falling into me like an unstoppable force,

controlling me in all ways, breaking my heart.

Tears unable to escape from my eyes,

screams are void, love doesn’t exist.

Looking into the deep dark emptiness I wake,

closed eyes on a once beautiful soul.

Death falls under my cries in the night,

hoping to take a hold on my mind.

No heart left to feel as everything dies,

crushing my reasons, taking away my dreams.

On the flames before me I remember your love,

how you would sweep me off of my feet with a glance.

The lights were brighter because you were there,

life was amazing, dreams became our reality.

If only I had known what to say,

if only my heart was more to you now.

Sometimes I look to the stars and pray,

that somewhere out there, you are wishing for me too.















Johnny Newell