Jealousy

I have never been known to feel the jealousy I see around me,

now I find myself feeling what I have hated for so long.

I am jealous of your pillow so close to you at night,

I am jealous of the time spent away from you.

I am jealous of the clothes you wear wishing I was on you,

I am jealous of the dreams we share as we sleep.

Never in my heart have I ever known this pain,

now it seems I am living all of my fears.

You have me in ways I have never felt possible,

my heart desires only to always feel you more.

I look into your eyes and know that all my love is for you,

I look into you and see that it is you that loves me now.

Yet as I close my eyes new thoughts rush through my head,

jealousy for the little things I would never notice before.

Jealous of the soap you use,

jealous of your towel.

Jealous of your hair,

jealous of your bed.

Jealous of the coffee you drink,

and even jealous of your cup.

jealousy for what you touch,

for what I cannot feel.

Don’t get me wrong my love it is the littlest fears I know,

I have only love for you but in this insanity I feel much more.

To feel you, taste you, hold you, kiss you, love you is what I desire,

but to imagine you in a towel drinking coffee in bed, is a lot for me to take…….

Johnny Newell