For so long I had believed I was just like everyone else. Lost in this world
of bullshit. So much has been done, too much to just forget. I am Matthew, stuck
in the middle of life and death. 37 years old and so invisible. I take walks
into town where the stares become so hard to handle. With music on, the world
just fades into the background. What is it about me that makes people despise
who I am? I really wish I knew the answers to the questions I am too afraid to
ask. The world is at my disposal and yet I find things so difficult. There never
seems to be any way for me to blend into the scenery. Why am I the way that I
am? If I ever find out, I will let you know.
Lies fill the heart of this man,
lost in his own fear her falls.
Nothing to grant peace of mind,
living with a broken heart.
So desperately he sought out forever,
as pain became the only friend he knew.
Breaking away from reality he stands,
alone on the sands of his life.
He cries when no one is looking,
he sees with eyes too blind to open.
Soaking his hands with her heart,
he remembers how she once loved him.
On the edge of a knife he falls slowly,
ripping into who he once was.
Dying to find understanding,
of how his love passed away.
Sometimes I look into the sky, hoping to see her face. Never are my wishes met. I always stand alone. If there was a god that knew everything, why would he/she do this to me? Not once did my lover do wrong. Not once did she say a bad word. If love is perfection then she was love. So perfectly beautiful in all that she did. My heart beats her name in the rain. My hands faded into this blood. Her name is Marie and she holds me still. I feel her on the air as I breathe. I just wish I could still wake up in her arms. “Marie if you can hear me. I love you with all that I am. There is nothing to keep us apart, only this body I am cursed inside of.” As he gives up his life he sees. Marie is waiting with open arms.
Johnny Newell
Lies fill the heart of this man,
lost in his own fear her falls.
Nothing to grant peace of mind,
living with a broken heart.
So desperately he sought out forever,
as pain became the only friend he knew.
Breaking away from reality he stands,
alone on the sands of his life.
He cries when no one is looking,
he sees with eyes too blind to open.
Soaking his hands with her heart,
he remembers how she once loved him.
On the edge of a knife he falls slowly,
ripping into who he once was.
Dying to find understanding,
of how his love passed away.
Sometimes I look into the sky, hoping to see her face. Never are my wishes met. I always stand alone. If there was a god that knew everything, why would he/she do this to me? Not once did my lover do wrong. Not once did she say a bad word. If love is perfection then she was love. So perfectly beautiful in all that she did. My heart beats her name in the rain. My hands faded into this blood. Her name is Marie and she holds me still. I feel her on the air as I breathe. I just wish I could still wake up in her arms. “Marie if you can hear me. I love you with all that I am. There is nothing to keep us apart, only this body I am cursed inside of.” As he gives up his life he sees. Marie is waiting with open arms.
Johnny Newell
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