Me for you, you for me

My soul breathes your light,

my heart bears the pain,

your touch entombs my eyes,

your love holds my hands.

I see who you are,

I know who I am,

you have all of me,

you are the reasons I die.

I know how love can feel,

I find in you my way,

you have me now this moment,

you always have my heart.

I seek only now to love you,

I know I won’t let you down,

you see in my eyes your light,

you succumb to my heart again.

I look out into your forever,

I find we are one in the same,

you show me more than meaning,

you paint my black world in love.









Johnny Newell

Fear and love

To be brave,

I had to be afraid.

To understand the light,

I lived in the shadows.

To come to find love,

I first came to pain.

To make it home,

lost I had to find.

To face this life with you,

I had to know myself.

In a world so far apart,

we came together.

I found my fear in love,

you found my heart in you.



Johnny Newell

Keys of reality

In all that is inside of you, I know.

My heart holds the keys,

as in light you are so beautiful,

will you hold your hand in mine?

With what you made in me, you know.

Your hands have my heart,

unlocking what is left to find,

may I stand beside you tonight?

We have become what is burning, we are one.

Our one heart sings the song of forever,

lyrics of destiny coming clearer,

In all that we are, can we fall together?

If I told you that you are so beautiful,

when I sing out your name do you hear,

you were never a dream left to interpret,

in my reality will you open the door?

You say what you feel is magical,

each breath you make speaks my name,

your touch soothes each painful desire,

your heart say the truth in my eyes.





Johnny Newell

Life in her love

Can she hold onto the dreams,

as life holds true to her heart.

Animation imagination she sings,

out her ideas in what she now holds.

Life giving love and understanding,

truth only feared by her eyes.

In the arms of youth dreams are made,

ways to receive what one seeks.

Aiming to be what is becoming,

finding a way past the night.

No amount of fear in her eyes,

she sees the way from long before.

Destiny painted by the heavens,

life canvased in her love.

It is in her reflection I see,

what a smile can mean to her heart.

Reaching out for this eternal dream,

a love for life life she loves.







Johnny Newell

Letting go, holding on

Burning, my heart is a flame,

waiting to feel, wanting to know.

Seeking, my soul wanders alone,

desperately finding a reason to hold on.

Falling, my tears in your storm,

wading endlessly as time forgets.

Leaving, dreams wake me to reality,

deathly shallow waters cold without regret.

Darkness, eyes seeing what never I could see,

a path only found in a time that time forgot.

Calling, your love waits for me to undo the pain,

grasping you close my arms won’t let go.







Johnny Newell

Within a gift

In a song lyrics are spoken in depth,

feeling all of this as a dream giving in.

Making words meaningful my eyes,

just to be the gift you always wanted.


If I bleed, does that prove I live?

Live to love I am destined to die.

Die I have cried to feel who I am.

Am I only the questions left unanswered?



In my eyes I have seen what I feared,

tasted on my lips the waters of pain.

Aside from who I have in my arms,

I am nothing but who is looking back.



I feel the lights burning the darkness away.

Away from this moment I find in your heart.

Hearts of shadows making their way into me.

Me with you knowing how to breathe once again.



When you look into me I know as you feel,

as tears freeze inside, it is my eyes that speak.

In your pain I am able to take all away,

just to be closer to who you are for me.





Johnny Newell

Love in need

I see you, I want you, I need you,

aching for your touch so close.

I have you, I know you, I love you,

each cursed breath a blessing.

You see me, you want me, you need me,

coming closer in my arms you possess.

You have me, you know me, you will love me,

as I take your breath away.

Look into my eyes like you never have before,

each second new in our lives poetically painted.

Shy my heart for weeping lights darkening forever,

planted in my heart your own bares all.

Unbearable anguish pictures falling before me,

buried in the only love I ever need to know.

If I see you can you see me looking back?

As I want you to want me can we be one flesh?

When I need you will your love need me too?

In having you can you feel you have me more?

I know you, do you know my heart is for you?

In my love do you realize you will one day love me?

In all I see and want my need is only for you to find,

you have me in a way known only by your love.

I have cried the rain for your eyes to see me again,

like you used to when I was so invisible to the world.

Waiting on the waters edge for my time to makes its way,

ready I am to fall, fall deeper into you.









Johnny Newell

Finding in you, you

Subtle breasts like the heavens,

lips that can kill with a single taste,

eyes that light up the stars,

a smile that melts even lava.

I see these things when I look at you,

but the most beautiful part of you I see, is your heart.

I have climbed the highest mountains to find,

anything that can compare to you, I failed.

A voice that takes my breath away,

laughter that washes all darkness clean,

a touch that sends shivers down my spine,

hair like the ocean’s waves you shine.

I have swam the deepest waters to fathom your love,

but there is nothing as deep and as pure as your heart.

A reality that dreams are made of,

tenderness like the silk in which we lay,

a body like the most pristine sculptures,

a treasure that only one will ever know.

I have searched this world to find a word for you,

speechless my tongue yet loudly my heart cries.

Legs of an angel I bow at your feet,

image of perfection making me imperfect,

in all the things I see in you I know this,

your love is the greatest love in this world.

I walk the world to come to your arms,

finding you waiting, ready for my heart.







Johnny Newell

Always in all ways

I wake up only for you,

somehow you make life beautiful.

Is it in your smile,

is it in your eyes?

The way you say my name,

or the way you see me.

I don’t ever want to wake up alone,

since you invaded my heart, I am complete.

I promise to always make the coffee strong,

I will always be who I am for you.

The simplest way you just be you,

makes my everything something.

I love how long you take to get ready,

and how you hate taking pictures.

I know in my heart how much I love you,

when you just say my name.

There is no sugarcoated anything,

I always know where I stand.

You don’t have to tell me you love me,

I just know it in my heart.

The way you can be a bitch enthralls me,

a fire inside I will never put out.

You are so emotional at times,

tears for the way I express myself to you.

Laying down on the same spot as you sleep,

dreaming of dreams seen on your face.

In all the ways you are you I love,

sometimes innocent yet somehow a rebel.

I love everything about you so you know,

I especially love how you hold me close.

My heart is now and always will be yours,

Baby I say fuck dreams, I love our reality.











Johnny Newell

Questions for you

Am I beautiful to your eyes?

Do you know how much you are?

Can you see beyond my face?

Will you always hold my heart?

Would you always be yourself?

Do you feel the way I do?

Do you know how much I love you?

Can you feel it in my eyes?

Does your kiss taste like heaven?

Am I what you dream about?

Can you see our eternity?

Do you feel loved by my life?

Will you want my everything?

Is there a better love than this?

Do you enjoy the way we kiss?

Do you know me for who I am?

Will you let me love you forever?

Can’t we start right now?

Do you see me in my eyes?

Are you willing to love me back?







Johnny Newell

To you, to me

Oh how the years have passed but when I am with you,

all time is vacant, I am so in love with you now.

The way you see me is unlike I have ever allowed,

open chest revealing a heart meant for you.

I put on a face that scares people away,

yet somehow you reach in and know me.

Is it because I love you only we know,

but my world is empty if we are not we.

When I feel your smile I know what trust is,

afraid yes, but you are worth the fear.

As I open my eyes to start the day I need you,

only can I dream when in your arms.

The way everything else disappears when you hold my heart,

I can’t breathe unless I am breathing in you.

There are times of struggle only when apart,

but I know I am loved as you hold onto my heart.

Like a child without fear I am ready to jump,

knowing that your arms will catch me.

Talking in bed as we fall asleep,

even if I mumble words unable to grasp.

I love you for all of the light that you are,

no shadows in my eyes when I see your smile.

I don’t like to wish upon anything but with you,

I wish to always be beautiful to your eyes.

The sun never dies as your light shines in me,

I only wish to be everything to you.







Johnny Newell

In a child's voice

Worlds created with a child’s voice in my ears,

softly innocent passion to be who she is.

Laughter abounding faith becoming,

reaching to the stars in her own mind.

Seeing the beautiful landscape playing,

where nothing matters but the time she has.

Whispering into existence her dreams speak,

hiding in pastures of colors so enlightening.

I heard her speak and all things slipped away,

making my name have meaning in a dark world.

Nothing less than the images made within her,

cookies and mommy are all that she desires.

Off to crazy she always wishes to go to,

Mommy will take her there in her eyes.

In a child’s voice new life is made,

beyond the realm where faith is no more.

As she closes her eyes to sleep she will dream,

this light in her rainbows shelters her from pain.

No flowers die where the sun never hides,

in her voice, her smile, shinning bright from her eyes.







Johnny Newell

Breath of death

Opening up my chest to reveal,

my feelings for a hope inside.

In an instant my breath is taken away,

unable to move by this falling I face.

What I knew in my heart has broken me,

with the silence that now entombs my will.

No words left to soundly speak in agony,

denied by the fear holding me down.

Drowning in the waters of love to survive,

stolen breath to become this image I now see.

Minutes feel as the years before hanging on,

shaking profusely encumbered breaking light.

Generating factitious lies befalling to demise certain,

no hope left in the tears crashing on the shores of death.

As my chest speaks of love this silent breath paints my soul,

air ceases to flow under the winds need for more.

Speeding heartbeat reminding life is at its end,

for love I died, but not before you took my breath away.





Johnny Newell

Pain of life's heart

Close my eyes just to see you before me again,

in my mind there is only room made for you.

So long have I been drearily passing through,

dreams made behind the nightmares I run from.

No need left to sustain me as I fall away,

endless pit of emotions tearing me apart.

Clouds bleeding my heart to fail this night,

not able to see what could possibly catch me.

In the corner of the room my life was undone,

nothing could I fear in what I felt was lost.

Drenched by the very blood in my eyes,

games of devils dancing on the wings of angels.

The painful moments susceptible to my agony,

tortured to live in what was sure to be my end.

Light shone my way as my eyes could see,

before me a dream, but somehow reality.

I found my breath in your presence,

as all else fades away, it is you who shines for me.









Johnny Newell

Prelude to a kiss

I wait to ask myself what has happened in time,

reflecting what was never seen in my eyes.

Never able to know brokenness inside,

guarded heart of emptiness my light.

Looking into your eyes I see how I changed,

making me somehow brighter than my façade.

Is there something that calls you to find me?

What did I ever do to come upon such a gift?

Tears have I many in days far and in between,

path to what was seen as my end before tonight.

I see the flowers dancing with your butterflies,

brightening the world with such a passion for love.

I see you in the mirror as water plays the rain,

holding who never could understand as to why.

Thunder sounds flashing enticing life to live,

you give me reasons to wake up again.

I ask what do you see in me now?

Are these the moments that amaze even you?

I keep acknowledging your touch planted inside,

showing me how even I can come to find something beautiful.

I wait to ask you how long have you realized my heart,

in times so fragile and I cannot see the outcome.

I dream again with you next to me,

no fear for the dark that once owned my soul.

Will you walk with me on the sands we create?

If you look into my eyes, do you see me as love?

Walking fantasy dreaming tomorrow never comes,

always in this moment where you taught me to kiss.









Johnny Newell

Coming home

In my absence I find a painful tear unable to be cried,

as we walk together on the sands of destiny.

So much to express behind what reasons wait,

unexplained by dreams these visions of light.

In ways I see I am so blinded by your eyes,

one path to face and together we stand.

No winter kissing the lips of the dying,

where the sun shines deep inside.

Wandering aimlessly to each other,

no need to see what our hearts feel.

Making a way unattainable we see,

open hearts on the hands of the wicked.

Tearing apart the ice to feel you becoming,

my world of passion, my image beyond dreams.

Wait no longer, find in my hands your own,

I am on my way, I am almost home.









Johnny Newell

Entering the arms of love

She cries inside not seeing what she desires to feel,

to be loved completely without a doubt in her heart.

Waiting patiently to uncover her dreams,

never going to sleep to keep from waking up.

Held by a rhyme without a way to explain,

as reasons become yesterday’s ghosts.

Eyes too blind to see what was coming,

a walk in the moonlight grasping her hands.

A feeling unlike any she has known,

makes his way to her in reality’s light.

Visions of emotions coming to greet them,

breaking change by changing their ways.



He watched as the years passed by to be alone,

in his heart there was someone who understood.

Walls built too high to allow another in,

fear of breaking apart his heart he fades.

He wanted so badly to know her name,

as time stopped, his life went on.

Reaching into the light where she played,

taking her hands into his own.

Together what was meant to be seen,

light love in arms colored in hope.

Kissing away the dreams they both expected,

finding comfort in each others arms.









Johnny Newell

Contradiction

Something calls me in so inviting it scares me.
A touch so cold I’m burning up inside.
Fires touched by ice.
Dreams blessed with you.
Holding nothing but everything.
Becoming one with love.
Taken away by your darkness.
Torn apart without your light.
Breathing air to die.
Tasting death to live.
Holding onto letting go.
Breaking my mind feeling your heart.
Depths shallow with pain.
Narrow oceans in rivers of love.
Breaking out to come inside.
Falling up to your touch.
Forsaken to be blessed.
Loved to know hatred.
Alone to feel together.
Lost just to be found.
Waking up to sleep.
Living just to dream.
Fading in instead of out.
Lying to tell the truth.
Fate becomes fact.
Light turns on the darkness.
Pain so soothing.
Heating up I’m freezing.
Nothing makes much sense save this,
I live to love you and love to be loved by you.
Breaking the chains to be tied down in a world of misunderstanding.










Johnny Newell

Completely

Isn’t it just another day to my soul,
how much can one man feel?
No laughter to heal what isn’t broken,
no tears to cry today, not this time.
I look out into the deepest eyes I have ever seen,
calling me into a world with hope.
Love one might say if one was me,
always feeling the light in her soul.
I was nothing before I became who I am,
twisted and dark with no light to find.
In a heart so beautiful she opened my eyes,
to find this man alone in the dark.
So long I was alone in shadows so cold,
despair wasn’t even there by my side.
In her heart she showed me who I could be,
in her arms was Love, a love meant for me.
I have no questions left to find the answers for,
all I believed before is nothing to me now.
So much life today in this heart so blessed,
in Love you ask, well completely I must say.




Johnny Newell

Burning needs

When you look at me, do you se me?

Am I beautiful, am I complete?

As my eyes close is all lost inside?

Can this moment mix into forever?

Here is my heart, will you accept it?

Broken nights holding what is left.

Here is my desire, can I keep you?

Endless touch made from this need.

Here is my life, will you end it?

As lights burn away we are one.

Here I am to love you, can you feel it?

Tasting your lips in a kiss made in Hell.

Here is my everything, do you want it?

Nothing will fall while we stand united.

I see the look you give me and I know.

I feel the touch of your lips and I see.

I face my fears as all things fall in place.

I see you looking into me burning into you.

You hold my hand in your soul reaching light.

You give me love and in it you reign.

You speak my name as your destiny.

You my love are all I will ever need.













Johnny Newell

Path of light

I hear each word she speaks calling my name.

Sometimes I question why, but with her there is no need.

On this path I face in what appears to be alone,

my hands are taken, my heart awaits my return.

No scented lace speaking dreams in this way I make.

Whosoever feels such as this is beyond comprehension.

Trying so hard to just breathe, she lifts my soul,

in all ways tangible we always journey as one.

In my hands I deliver to her my heart so cold.

Does she question me, does she see my heart?

Slicing the veins of painful light forged in my eyes,

loosing the hatred I once noticed in the mirror.

In my sufferings I have come to be made to understand.

A pathway so unclear seen only in the darkest lights.

Such a way writhed in destiny’s need for fate to survive,

hiding not what I was so timid to show before.

She asked me to keep her heart safe as her chest opened for me.

Next to my own I keep all that she means to me closer than life.

On a rainbow of purple passion’s fire burning for my kiss,

in her hands is my home wanting only to keep her close.

There is a look that she shows as sweethearts become.

Baby for love in a storm of desire she calls my name.

I sing to her in how my heart speaks for her to know,

bound in water we come to this path together.

I would sell my soul to burn her pain from her eyes.

There is no amount of suffering too great to feel for her.

When she cries it is seen in my tears letting go,

just to find how much she matters to my life.

What can I do to show how much this absence is breaking me?

Notwithstanding the very image of walking alone to her arms.

I waited for light, it was in her shadows I am free to feel,

I wait for her still under these rainbows of waterfalls and love.

In a heart love forgot

Emptiness speaking aloud in shame,

loneliness a way of life unnoticed.

Broken glass crying heart,

unloved, unwanted, unaware.

Painful torture befalling,

eyes of rain pouring tears.

Anguish calling answering loss,

finding brokenness beyond.

Holding onto letting go,

handled fear fate discovered.

Loveless life breathing agony,

shameful dream living life.

Burned away into ashes,

dust of life without love.

Soothed in comfort new pain,

waiting leaving alone heart of glass.

Pieces mended glue of hope,

crashing down to taste the fall.

Walked on trampled way unseen,

open heart broken, eyes of night revealed.

Tedious action faith becoming,

facing what love had forgotten.

Wounds dry bleeding empty,

made to die, dying to live.

Insanity making rooms of heart,

content in pain reached in choices not made.











Johnny Newell

She is, I am

She whispers, I fall,

melting into light.

She smiles, I cry,

giving to me her heart.

Laughing lights blinding,

hint of gray our night.

Twisting hands together,

new dreams to come.

Separated making one,

hand close to my heart.

She cries, I hold on,

tears washed away.

She dreams, I live,

for her touch of love.

Memories once forgotten,

waking nightmares of life.

Wreaking havoc we accept,

burning strong ice of war.

Testing depths of desire,

into the night solace found.

She lives so I can die,

swimming to worlds new.

She bleeds so I can cry,

raining love into apathy.

Fearing the fall embracing,

underneath lives of satin.

Realms sunlight hiding,

image blank seeking hope.

Taken to know unsung,

hearts of glass forever strong.

She loves, I am in love,

one light brilliantly shown.

She is my perfection,

I am imperfect to all.

On a raft of fiery tombs,

we burn as life fades.

Bowing before her I am,

closer than breath, my air.

Eyes open to speak silence,

hearts of one making life.











Johnny Newell

Soul of blood

She found me there in my death,

lifted me up as life was undone.

Holding out long enough to feel,

taking from me this pain.

Spiraling upwards I fall into her,

arms open wide kiss left behind.

Flushed eyes bleeding light,

soul of exotic imagery.

Kneeling before her I smile,

wrapped around me her arms.

Holding close breathing hearts,

soul of blood living on.

Stars of glass shattering tonight,

waves of lust my pain.

River of darkness my heart,

feeling lost without my way.

Hands exchanged with trust,

buried inside tears of blood.

Crying happiness remembered,

touch of forever unsaid.

Lifting up what was fallen,

up to flames burning clean.

Letting go to be forgotten,

life of love soul of blood.

No start to end to I stand,

end of beginning we fall.

Heart of love making new light,

darkness of shadows my blood.

Craving nothing holding on,

hearts blending as one.

Hands together futile existence,

life inside of my death.

Reaching in to uncover,

feeling awake in my dreams.

Tested by fate everlasting,

waking in her arms once again.









Johnny Newell

You are me, we are we

I am falling,

falling into you.

I am waiting,

waiting to hold you.

I am nothing,

nothing without you.

I am your man,

wanting you more.

You are floating,

floating to my arms.

You are invading,

invading my soul.

You are the light,

light that I need.

You are my reason,

reason for everything.

We are becoming,

becoming each other.

We are entwined,

entwined by desire.

We are eternal,

eternal fires in light.

We are dreaming,

dreaming of love.





Johnny Newell

How I can love you

Here I am with open arms to hold you as close as my heart.

Over time my love for you will melt into friendship.

With all of the light inside of me, I will never let you fall.



Inside of my hands your heart will know comfort and hope.



Caused by desire my touch will always be enough for you.

As the days go by I promise to never drift from your eyes.

Never will you feel alone as my love embraces your own.



Lost I will guide you back to where we belong.

On my lips your kiss will be my eternal flame.

Vicariously living love through your eyes I won’t let go.

Everything I am is only because I love you.



You are the very image of desire in my eyes.

Out in the night my arms will be your home.

Under my heart I promise I will love you more than anything.











Johnny Newell

Blood in her kiss

Wearing my heart on her sleeves,

kissing pain away in light of hope.

Heaven is a lie without her touch,

yearning to burn in hell for her.

She licks the blood in my love,

denying the loss of letting go.

Holding me in as her own,

helping me see who I am.

Fiery tomb covered in ice,

frozen love beating love’s blood.

She was there in my eyes,

blindly seeking in front of me.

I did it all for her to have my love,

dying for a life so beautiful inside.

Autumn rain frozen soul indignity found,

ripping away from the sins in my eyes.

Poison fills my tongue kissing life away,

lights killed by the darkness in my heart.

I am the river in her eyes crying for my love,

she is the light that gives me shadows to hide.

Nothing I am without the only kiss I need,

waiting frivolously for what she has in me.

Her lips my reason for life left at all,

helping light and darkness find love in one.













Johnny Newell

No heart without you

Since you walked away my heart knows nothing,

but this agony burning my life away.

In your hands my beating blood reigns,

over this death I taste without you.

I cannot feel what you stole from me,

no painful tears left to endure.

The light that was in my eyes forsaken,

dwindling down this path of despair.

You forgot me in the distant shadows,

where no heart can manage to beat.

Blood fills my eyes crying lost my soul,

unaware of what I am until now I stand alone.

Knife in my chest no heart to be revealed,

resting in your hands where I lost everything.

The look in your eyes haunting my every breath,

falling to what I have become to see as love.

Break me I asked you and breaking me you did,

leaving the taste so fresh on my lips.

No path to come to as life curses me,

I cannot die for you killed me as you stole my heart.

In the hands of loss you cradle my soul’s flame,

taking me from the only feeling I wanted to know.

Love is pain, life is death, hope is lost,

nothing to die for, no way I can live.







Johnny Newell

Missing tomorrow today

How can what was seen as evil in my eyes, bring light,

as life makes a way to survive holding this instant.

I wake up to hear nothing but her heartbeat,

softly echoing her percussion in my ears.

Waning shadows bleeding my need for more,

insatiable feelings of a troubled mind.

Loving until death breaks free from pain,

lighting inside a grave built from broken tears.

Looking into her eye’s darkness, her beauty shines,

as if nothing changed in changing completely.

Colors of darkness hide the passion to bequeath,

my heart and death to give away this life.

Acceptance denied in visions coming into view,

holding close the pain to comfort her love.

In her hands the keys, nowhere to be found alone,

for my love to make way for only her smile’s touch.

Was I meant to become the evil to find the good.

fleeting tomorrow’s games of yesterday now.

To hold on to having changing my heart for her,

as tears pour down my face I understand what I have missed.













Johnny Newell

Heart of time

What was it he felt when looking into her?

In her kiss so long he had been waiting,

exceeding what expectations he needed.

While she looks into his eyes can he cry?

Ho much passion felt in a single moment,

with her in his dreams he understands the fall.

Does his heart reflect what he has known?

How he gave her his heart knowing she’d love him,

understanding in her kiss what he has never seen.

Can she feel the light he holds in his loving touch?

All of the time that has been spent like rivers of desire,

coming together in what was meant to be.

Unseen but not forgotten does her heart feel the same?

How when she says his name all that is in him fades away,

into the waters of pleasure forged by the feelings within.

Where has his path taken him over dreams of before?

She smiles as she feels the need for her in his eyes,

knowing he feels the same after all that has passed.

In lights and shadows can she see him still?

Waiting in the rivers of love and pain to hold her,

where fantasy becomes the goals in which they share.

Is it really hard to believe in this chance to love?

Giving up so long ago, yet he still sees her as his light,

wanting her to need his soul as he needs to hold her heart.









Johnny Newell

My need is for you

Waking up to the only feeling left to know,

beyond a shroud of light inside.

Facing what I see in the mirror,

becoming who I was made for in you.

All memories new from now,

pictures of beautiful perfections.

I cannot feel without the touch you possess,

hanging in my hear who you are.

Your angelic heart has taken a hold inside,

all that is known is let go of while with you.

Sleeping soundly dreamer’s illusion felt,

buried while time stands still.

Loving your skin as your fingers take me,

pulling me back making your way.

Façade of poetic visions of hope,

reality lost behind your smile.

In waking up to feel you I know,

what it is I need in my life.

Your voice in my ear speaking forever,

showing my eyes what blindness took away.

I need you more than I need to breathe,

either alone is death to my mind.

Hopes rise up as luster touches me again,

in your hands, eyes taking me back home.

In you I have weakness bound in pain,

shame forgotten between the shades.

You asked me what I need when I open my eyes,

my love, my life, it is you I need to survive.









Johnny Newell

An apple for a kiss,

lips of red delight,

torture me again,

feeling my breath.

Delicious taste,

your lips of pain,

knowing now,

wanting more.

Red of lust,

hint of you,

made for me,

kiss of death.

Break my way,

together inside,

twisted fate,

poison my need.

Luscious lips I crave,

pull me into you,

face the night with me,

red kiss of life.

Love my tongue,

feel my dream,

deep kiss of pleasure,

found in your smile.

Lips of heaven,

hell apart I know,

holding light to you,

darkness leaving.

Apple red lips,

kiss of passion,

making more than love,

found in your beautiful kiss.









Johnny Newell

Blindly felt

If love is blind, I never want to open my eyes,

to feel you touch me, factitious lust unveiled.

I sense your touch lips braided bride of death,

living life lust leaving love loose illuminated light.

Wings of pain brushing against my face colored by you,

helplessly enduring the very touch to break me.

Rape me inside of life your blindness calling,

facing the fear of letting go to hold on,

despaired by shame eyes close burned by your touch.

Feel my heart, taste the tears my eyes will never know ,

fly away with my dreams of ecstasy broken in pain.

I can’t see who I feel inside of your body holding light,

where love is destined for blindness falling apart.

In you I will fall deeper with the nights to come,

fearing only the way I feel what I never see in you.







Johnny Newell

Tears for love lost

She feels him inside of her every thought,

in her blood under what is life and death.

On his lips she kisses her pain away,

thorns of love cried for hopes to come.

Piercing her soul invaded by desire,

she wants him to see who she is.

Scared to break he breaks for her,

coming to be pieces left to be one.

Rose of pleasure facing new shades of white,

her kiss more deadly than life.

The look in her eyes smiles for light,

shades of love underestimated by chance.

Fierce touch enduring emotion inside,

breaking unspoken vows of darkness.

Her heart bleeds for his hands to be,

his touch covers her fear with pain.

In death they join, in life they find,

ways to become, light to deny.

Beginning to end fate to destiny lies,

life ripped apart by life itself.

She waits in the fire for his heart to burn,

lighting inside the reasons left to find.

Tears fall another moment to see,

he isn’t coming back to her tonight.









Johnny Newell

Speechless

Lights blending in,
darkness taking all.
Death becoming life,
hatred mixing in love.
Broken apart,
together again.
Dreaming,
faking,
holding nothing,
lying tears,
broken hearts calling home.
No words said,
no lies spoken,
love cries out,
pain answers fast.
Breathing,
not breathing,
twisted fears,
spoken,
unspoken,
loveless tears.
Waking up,
sleeping hard,
life for death,
abused,
beaten up,
crying in light so fake.
Words,
empty,
painted wrong in dreams,
touched,
untouched,
unloved by love.
Falling,
silent,
afraid to feel feelings,
cold,
warm,
bound as one in pain.
Drifting,
floating,
making for home,
hearts,
souls,
love will find her way....


Johnny Newell

Hopeful butterfly

She speaks in butterflies softly imagination found,

painted black in her beautiful purple eyes.

Fluttering her wings in front of my heart’s denial,

withering my soul as light breaks my fall.

Holding in my emptiness falsification facts unveiled,

holding life beyond the fears of her painful kiss.

Scorched in her hands my life undone reclaimed,

under the strength of the wings she brushes against my face.

Gothic pleasures dwindling flames letting loose,

souls forsaken writhed in pain I see who she is.

Butterfly my hope to learn to love once for life,

broken pieces of a heart forgotten by the gods.

Killing light nightshade filling my veins,

wings of a dreamful butterfly in her eyes tonight.

She holds me close when I can’t seem to move,

nightmarish heaven broken by the hell inside.









Johnny Newell

Running away

What am I now that I am not running away,
is this the image spoken in dreams of old?
A heart made for suffering and pain so great,
love didn't exist, just an illusion with words.
I had so much to be afraid of yet I never allowed it,
to be a ghost was the only way I knew how to control.
I can't find myself now too hard to look in the mirror,
not wanting to face reality I run from everyone.
I see nothing but lies spoken from love’s heart so twisted,
breaking me if I let it, burning me inside and out.
I cry so silently in this depth of this hell I am in,
free of nothing but the solitude I sit in now.
I have nothing in my life worthy of my tears,
nobody could hear me, nobody could feel.
I am destined to walk alone in troubles and fear,
under the moon I walk away from their reality.
The sun holds my eyes so bright for love’s desire,
creating in my heart a fire I can't explain.
I never asked for this grief of sorrows unseen,
pictured in my thoughts as my feelings go insane.
I feel something deeper than I ever knew I could,
fear has taken the pain, love sets in my heart.
I cry tears that don't make any sense to me at all,
loving an angel so amazing from a devils point of view.
She lights my soul in water so lovely and warm,
never alone inside, no feelings of running away.
I am at a loss in my heart trying to understand,
but somehow I know that I have no need to.
All of my tears wiped away from the hand that loves me,
no shame in my tears, no fear in my soul.
She has me in a way nobody else will ever know,
all of me for her to be loved and love me the same.
I have never believed in truth nor did I care,
now I know how wrong I was just by hearing her voice.
I am in a world now so alive that only we can share,
bleeding in to bleed us out in dark lights of memories gone.
I hold her close in the distance set up to bring us in,
she was born for me to love and find the truth in our hearts.
I have wanted yet not asked, I have needed and ran away,
with her I am free to stand, I am free to be who I am.
I cry now only to feel this joy for more days than my life,
walking hand in hand with the beautiful death I found in love’s eyes.
In me you will have no worries of yesterdays forgotten by fate remembered,
in you I will only run to your arms, I will never run away.
I love you with a heart so warped and twisted for you,
as in water I know you understand, as love I am in you.
Hold me by the edge and show me that letting go is pain,
a lesson learned well is thought by the greatest lover of all.





Johnny Newell

Faeries touch

Spring rain eyes crying song,

flowers death pain in love.

Purple light black shadows,

faeries touch wings of silk.

Summer kiss fiery grave,

wet drying mesmerizing.

Red heat white satin eyes,

blind picture painted kiss.

Fall burns Autumn leaves,

tear soaked heart of blood.

Writhing pain love undone,

growth dying life giving up.

Winter chill kiss of ends,

white clouds darker sorrow.

Empty wishes wishing star,

end to end start to start.







Johnny Newell

In my love

If I said I needed to love you, could I?

As my heart mixes into yours, can you?

Each moment together makes us one,

in this night becoming life behind closed doors.

If I want to love you, will you allow me to?

If I give you my heart, will you take it?

Here is my soul burning apart in your arms,

expecting life past the death tasted inside.

If I am to love you, am I good enough?

As my heart breaks for you, can you mend me?

Broken waters waves crashing shore so cold,

underneath of the vision left behind in tears.

If I give to you my love, can you hold on?

In my heart I hold you, can you feel me?

Leaving all behind but what I have in your arms,

making my life our love in who we are.

I love you now in forever in your questions.

My heart is bleeding to feel your touch again.

What this light speaks of is ours to embrace,

under all things tonight, in all love and hope.









Johnny Newell

Ostara come

She smiles for the butterflies around her heart,

bringing flowers to life in such a beautiful light.

Birds sing her name as love blesses her eyes,

lips of captivation untold her love by life.

She touches all around her in this mysterious garden,

dancing fairies playing songs of simplification.

Ostara blends into illusions of pleasure,

yearning to make beauty form in her kiss.

Waterfalls illuminating desire cold,

hazel eyes perceived belief letting go.

Walking into this garden where lovers play,

twisting together to form the Witch found as one.

Sorrowful tears raining life in this spring I see,

covered by her heart my love is in her eyes.

Fill me within your creation bound in flames,

tame the beast inside of my dying heart.

Ostara come to me in my life ready to flourish,

as winter fades it is in your arms I belong.







Johnny Newell

Blessed be

In her arms she holds the light,

moon of peace my soul divides.

Crept into the arms of hope,

too weak to hold on I let go.

Comforting my soul in her eyes,

behind the shadows in which I hide.

Tested to fail she gives me a chance,

welcomed by love and desire in her hands.

Casting a circle of light in my heart,

making me close when so far apart.

Heading out to home I see inside of her arms,

where I am held by the night safe from harm.

Kiss me tonight she speaks into me,

in light and love, blessed be.







Johnny Newell

A light inside of a dream

In a dream of a touch so enticing I fall,

deep into her arms as I cry.

Loneliness fades inside of this light,

where dreams of hearts become my own.

I want you in a way I can’t explain,

each whisper you smile my way I know.

To feel your heart within my reach I hold,

closer in our warmth captured by your kiss.

You light in my dreams your name,

washing away the pain in your eyes.

I smile inside of your heart letting go,

fears forgotten as you say hello.

The light in your breath speaks my name,

holding embraced by love in a light so perfect.

Heart of darkness brightly shinning fate,

destiny lets go as life holds on.

Hair in your hands my blackness devised,

breathe in me your heavenly light.

Bound in comforting pain you’re beautiful smile,

released by deception waters falling home.

I know want in ways I need your touch,

lips of desire crying for more.

Elocin my dream of light and love so true,

star of hope my dreams burning for you.









Johnny Newell

My Goddess, my Moon

Silhouetted in perfection she lights my eyes,

dancing to the moon in all absolution denied.

Water walker heeding the moment to stand,

in my heart she loves me, I am in her hands.

Beauty beyond my eyes blinded by her touch,

falling aimlessly into the dreams of her love.

Light in me my Goddess of perfection untold,

to learn how to trust, to never let go.

In my dreams your heart is all that I need,

without faith somehow in you I believe.

Under your eyes where my home stands in you,

no fears left to face, inside of our truth.

You reach into me and hold my life in your light,

blessings beyond who I see past your eyes.

Falling away deeper into you with each passing moon,

coming to love, knowing your light, for who I am for you.









Johnny Newell

From mother to child

In all of my life I have known,

how much I wanted to be like my mom.

There with a heart of gold,

when all was meant to be hard.

In you I have new reasons to be,

in all that you my child need.

I love you for who you are,

my baby in my heart you will always be.

No wrong done cannot be undone,

in my eyes you are my light.

I will be there through all of your tears,

as pain becomes apparent to your life.

In your heart feelings may be hurt,

but I will never go to sleep in anger.

When you fall asleep I am holding you close,

through the nightmares you see and wake from.

As the years go by you will come to feel my love,

and know how much you have always been to me.

I remember your baths when I washed your hair,

making a mess for me to clean up again.

Also I recall the beauty in your eyes,

when you look into me needing my touch.

In all of the times when things were tough,

I find the perfection in the mistakes we made.

I will hold you up when you always fall down,

mend your wounds with a kiss from my love.

I am now and will always be your mom,

as my child I will never let you go.

Tonight I pray for your sleep to be sweet,

my precious little angel, mommy loves you so much.













Johnny Newell

Lucifer's love

Sitting in a pool of her own blood waiting for a reason to fly away,
her heart lost somewhere in between understanding and fate.
No blood left to bleed, no hope left to know,
heart crushed by the way of her world.
Her wings cover her wounded soul,
the eyes of yesterday blinded by tomorrow.
Down in the flames under control of choices unclear,
dead in the eyes of some, alive to her love.
She cried out for a moment so pure to set in,
past all disbelief she opens her heart.
All she ever thought she wanted became all she needs,
his touch when she wakes up feeling alone inside.
I see the as one in two different worlds so far from this love,
her ways becoming his desire for a truth yet to be seen.
It looks as though the light in his heart breaks for her shadows,
trying to figure out how to become Darklight in dark love.
The look she has is one of a death so beautiful,
calling out the images portrayed in my mind.
He looks of an angel getting ready to fall,
ready to love his mate, ready to burn with her.
Her blood pours out and he has yet to be seen,
cast down beyond her, ripped from their dreams.
Her heart looks down as her life finally comes to an end,
without love she was empty, too empty to stay alive.
With her last breath she stands and glances my way,
cold tears roll down her cheek, blood rushes out of her body.
As she falls to the ground with no life left inside,
I saw a different side of Lucifer, nothing like the lies I have heard before.




Johnny Newell

Your lips, my sin

You kiss me as I fall to the ground,
holding me up in times of pain.
My sin fills your eyes,
my body under yours we love.
Together in the night we play,
without rules, without fear.
My heart beats your lust in flames,
your eyes bleed desire in my soul.
I love you for your passionate lips,
kissing the darkness out of me.
I hold you up in times of sin,
filling our hearts with forever unknown.
Loving you is like breathing,
nothing I can do alone.
You hold me close and light my heart,
with fire so pure and out of control.
Your lips have become the death of me,
all my dreams lead to hell.
In you I am free to die,
kissing you I am able to live.




Johnny Newell

Enter my eyes

Will you let me in please?

For Love I would do anything.

For anything I would try everything.

For everything I would be nothing.

In nothing I am completely yours.

In life I was broken.

In my heart something was missing.

In knowing nothing I found everything.

In tasting death I found new life.

In love I was hopeless.

In crying tears I found the sea.

In love where I was empty,

you came and rescued me.




Johnny Newell

Deathly desire

Your eyes burn my flesh as life ends to start,

twisting purpose lost in my hands.

Your words cut into me as light fades to black,

heart breaking just to feel you again.

Looking into your heart my eyes blindly state,

being lost inside of your death my home.

To feel your pain my goal in shadows beautiful,

shrouded by evil desires come to life.

You are the death in my soul calling out my name,

feeling painful pleasures in your poisonous kiss.

Rip me apart to find who you’ll always have in me,

love and pain, life and death, all of me for you.

My eyes speak what others cannot seem to see,

you are the only reason I can die in this hell.

Touch me tonight while all fires burn apart,

taste me you shall in the blood I leave behind.

Kill me to know me, make me to understand,

in all that you are for me I see only love.

Reign over my heart my will yours to become,

loving you to death and never do us part.

Deathly eyes this life our hopes become the same,

under your heart where my only desire is you.









Johnny Newell

Wishing for you

Dancing daisy autumn rose of spring,

song of hope within your heart.

I have wished for you for so long,

waiting at the doorway of your love.

Destiny reaching wishing upon you,

making my way just to feel you again.

Stars shinning your name in my eyes,

forged in fire, blessed by your touch.

Petals of passion breathed into life,

whispers of a heart not yet forgotten.

On the winds of desire my heart speaks clearly,

a vision of imagination forming reality.

I cry for you to know my rain,

growing this flower spilling love.

Clouds of intimacy covering all dreams,

under lights where wishes come true.

Carrying a name among my eyes you shine,

stars in my day you are the sun in my eyes.

Stay with me another moment in my wish,

to know my heart will never hide from you.

Wish with me this forever, fall away with me,

let us ride the winds of our lives on these waters.









Johnny Newell

Footprints to love

Footprints within,

finding the path to life.

Making moments last,

feelings becoming hope.

Walk with me a child,

see in me a way.

Find my tracks by yours,

leading lives together.

Footprints on my heart,

walking with love’s embrace.

Needing a light to see,

found within your eyes.

Each step made enlightens,

who we are inside.

Footprints making forever,

a path we share in life.

Holding hearts in hands,

walking away on distant shores.

Your footprints in my soul,

trudging on into love.







Johnny Newell

Kiss me again

Kiss me like you did once before,

when nothing was here but our love.

Nothing to hide from when together,

we were all that existed inside.

Wrap your arms around me so tightly,

don’t let go of the passion we create.

Press your lips against mine for the first time,

as life stands still it is in our love we move on.

Kiss me again when only we mattered,

close your eyes as I open your heart.

Take my breath away with your smile,

look into my eyes and feel the love in me.

For you my passionate embrace reflects my soul,

all light found inside of you this moment,

as one we become who we are in this.

A kiss found in the dreams we make,

living who we are together as one flesh.

Kiss me like you did when we were young,

make me see with your eyes this heart.

In my kiss there is you always shinning bright,

in a love made from the heavens we make tonight.









Johnny Newell

Bear my water's heart

Was there always something for me to see in your smile,

how time stood still in worlds so far apart.

Joyous creation in the heavens your stars,

shinning in my eyes where only darkness knew me.

I have taken this moment to realize my fears,

of testing new waters in which I don’t understand.

Able to mix as I fall deeper into your heart,

imaginations making these dreams we share in life.

Notwithstanding my pain to be discovered by you,

reaching into me to hold what little was left.

In your arms my breath is taken away,

captivated by the very touch of heaven you are.

Lost only to be found by the eyes you see me with,

while your breath gives life to a soul dead inside.

Feelings caused in new emotions waters free,

river to nowhere your everywhere takes me.

Moonlight moonlight shine for me tonight,

reveal to me your secret behind your smile.

Sunlight sunlight I wish upon your heart,

send me the touch only your heart can bring.







Johnny Newell

Erotic dream

Close your eyes and feel me come into your dreams,

caressing your body with the warmth of my hands.

Slowly tasting your skin with a lust burning inside,

bittersweet moments with the lights off.

Kiss me like you have never kissed me before,

as I touch your face and remove your clothes.

Down at you feet your toes in my mouth,

brushing my hands gently up your calves.

I will bite you so softly while licking you well,

to feel you quiver with each move I make.

Up to your thighs I ravish you sin within my kiss,

deeper and harder as your waters flow.

Moaning sounds of heartbeats rushing blood,

sweat forming in the heat of this night.

Wrap your legs around me, don’t let me go,

pleasing you my desire, my desire your pain.

Pull my hair, control me to do your will,

as I slide inside of you hands held down.

Lips locked embraced in passion we fall,

more than just a dream, I feel you beneath of me.

Suck on my neck, slow the rhythm down,

ecstasy calling, fantasy answering our call.

Hold me in you, as my hips touch your own,

another night in desire, pleasure our sin.











Johnny Newell

Goddess of life

Staked by painful lies untold behind,

drenched in the blood of death.

Sorrowful eyes crying despair,

drowning in memories forgotten.

Hall of fear crawling aimlessly,

wandering soul lost in time.

Broken to mend unbraiding,

life left long before its end.

Hail my way reign my desires,

dreams crashing existence lost.

Intertwined hearts making new love,

found in the elements of perfection.

Spring new life as the sun becomes,

all flowers new spirits and truth.

Summer night peaking heat in lust,

where conception is key to survive.

Fall makes her way leaves of gold,

autumn nights becoming beautifully painted.

Winter of life death in necessary,

to make way for what must come next.

Goddess shines her life through my blood,

given to cherish new desires untold.

As in my life I see my way,

where I become part of her light.







Johnny Newell

He loves me

He loves me, he loves me not,

picking flowers to feel the petals speak.

Mascara soaking eyes trying to perceive,

belief in what nature has for her heart.

No cards left to turn over she sits,

waiting in the shadows of fate.

Gothic love speaking painful meaning,

slicing through her hands covering her soul.

Backwards to peace her words speak nothing,

muttered silently singing heartbeat unfolds.

Buried alive in the tomb of her love,

expecting forever to start within his return.

White dreams painted black to become,

who she hides behind her makeup smeared.

Feet planted as her life shows its way,

killed by the only kiss she ever needed.

He loves me, he loves me not,

he loves you for I am right by your side.







Johnny Newell

Angel softly spoken

I know where angels come from,

softly speaking perfection in my ear.

On fairy’s wings she smiles into the moon,

chosen light within my reach to hold.

Accented in beauty she whispers,

about strength and divine passion.

In all of the troubles endured she smiles,

in the face of pain where her heart stands.

Unearthed her roots grasp who she is,

an angel from another place and time.

Caring to care in her arms there is love,

a mother of light in ways too hard to explain.

As she sits in this light the world begins,

life made precious in eyes as dark as mine.

Desire meets fate, destiny sees change,

in waters of belief she treads my sea.

Laughter eminent bound in diamond’s eyes,

refracting peace in troubled waters.

Dreaming life into new existence she cries,

tears of pain, passion, love undefiled.





Johnny Newell

Loved to death

Heart speaks broken fading memories,

where her love has gone to she weeps.

For a moment left in all tie forgotten,

she stands against the wall waiting for his touch.

No feeling left to find beyond her eyes,

covered in the light her heart bearing black.

Dancing flames trickling tears waterfalls,

swimming to drown in more than her sorrow.

Flights consuming hellish desires untold,

moving in place her heart stops beating.

Shaking in the mirror reflecting pain,

still long enough to see who she has become.

Flesh ripping words out of her soul,

where has my love gone she bleeds away.

Touching the face of god in her dreams,

nightmare broken images illusions quite clear.

Can you feel me still she whispers inside,

as all life ceases to create more than this.

Walls collide in who she cannot face again,

love without life, life without her love.







Johnny Newell

In my shame

Written on my face is the fear of my pain,

each tears cried a lesson taught by shame.

Unable to speak the tragedy within,

breaking me apart without a chance to bend.

Nothingness fills me empty as I weep,

closed eyes beckoned to feel what I need.

In my shame I cry with you.



Loss felt endless ends meaning forgotten,

falling floating dreams of life unscathed.

Treacherous fear immense light now cold,

no sun to bask in a shadow built in my guilt.

Screaming the silence echoing through my mind,

heart broken by who I never wanted to know.

Moreover my life my death seeks my eyes,

for on the words of my heart my face reveals my shame.



Test me, I will not allow you to win.

Break me, my heart can take your pain.

Try me, in this game you will know.

Feel me, as my heart closes the door.



Willingness slipping slashing wrists of hope,

no love written on my eyes tonight I cry.

Taking back my soul to see what I am,

under the hand of doom I find my way.

Waters touch freezing my will to survive,

for in my shame I will make my way back home.



Lies of love,

broken again.

Trying patience,

try my rage.

Letting go,

waking up.

Seeing light,

facing fear.

In my shame,

I shall rise against.











Johnny Newell

In a child's eyes

You say to jump,

without fear she jumps.

Held so close together,

as the lights fade away.

No pain to uncover,

in the eyes of a child.

Spoken faith believing,

nothing holds her down.

Smiles to light your forever,

tears to wash away your pain.

Whispers of life seeking hope,

her eyes will never lie.

How once we knew this trust,

we can see in her life.

Flowers of beauty she finds,

new light in our winter’s fall.

Spring in rain she tests,

where we could never believe.

Falling away her youth is captured,

on the hearts of children abound.

Darkness giving way to her light,

as life starts to unfold.

Looking through a child’s eyes,

where trust and love are unbroken.













Johnny Newell

Dark eyes blind

On winds of eternity she falls to her knees,

love in her heart eyes to blind to see.

Unscathed by the loss she is coming to view,

all broken dreams inside of her hands his life.

Knowing only now the pain she used to defend,

as his end becomes the storm inside of her arms.

Nothing left to feel she gives up her forever,

crawling on flames of ice burning her soul.

Hatred blessing hopes to fade beyond her time,

lost love ending what was known by her touch.

Falling fading faster her heart stops to perceive,

what was once perfection now just a forsaken dream.

Holding only the loneliness killed by a touch so cold,

bleeding her tears on rivers of destiny.

Too weak to carry his heart back into her own,

crying loss she is leaving on blind wings of hope.











Johnny Newell

Heaven denied

I hold my heart in your hands,

eyes bleeding words of sorrow,

testing flames to bequeath you,

my soul in all love combined.

Holding your light behind my eyes,

seeing what only blindness reveals,

touching heaven inside,

with every moment shared.

You look into me without remorse,

fading shame broken in time,

fleeting memories losing tomorrow,

feeling who you allow me to find.

Your kiss has become the sin I will die for,

wrath falls as flames of life ignore,

gates broken down by love denied,

your heaven is my hell.

Looking down upon me up my wings can feel,

winds of pleasure twisting life inside,

open and willing beyond the cause,

I am able and ready to die for your touch.

No pain to feel without you to consume,

making my way my end inside of your heaven,

fallen angel up to know the reason for me,

your touch, your kiss, your loving embrace.

I will burn in hell forever to know your love.











Johnny Newell

Finding inside

Each scar holds a memory of shame,

written in blood my anguish and pain.

Burnt life fading into an unwelcomed love,

poisonous words spoken in trust.

Who could have known what was inside?



Every dream pictured lights the path to home,

where meaning is empty, loneliness shown.

Imagery painted words of life and death,

sorrow holds all of the reasons that are left.

How can I let go of what is inside of me?



Tear soaked skin, unbearable heart inside,

speaking loudly soulless man I cry.

Joining death to understand what I know,

nothingness the only reflection I show.

In all that I am how can I rise again?



Blood sinking fears nightmare’s my name,

broken in fate in destiny’s game.

Lips locked in silence my only way to feel,

wounds of life too deep to ever heal.

What have I become inside of myself?



Hopes lost as time stands still in my chest,

falling away from reality in secrets I’ve kept.

Letting go of who I was long ago,

who I am now only my pain can know.

Do I feel as much as my shame allows?



Down beside me in emptiness I stand alone,

dirt bed ready for my body to come home.

Shaking hands denied by what I once held inside,

closing my heart to life, running from the light.

All of these are what I found so deep inside.











Johnny Newell

Fantasy of change

How a tear creates the rain within my heart,

to the essence of a fantasy left in limbo,

where only the dreamer can see my face.

As light is the reason behind my shadows,

worlds fall away from illusion’s deceit,

playing games with heartstrings my wrath.

Sounds of silence deafening my ears,

nothing to speak, nothing left to imagine,

only teardrops of blood seeping from my heart.

In a moment of clarity my whispers made,

dancing angels on vampire wings of love,

becoming what was never meant to be.

Moonlight carrying the sun in her beauty,

pale skin softly brushes across my face,

making this light more than just my desire.

Heartless soul fading into the unknown,

destined to fail rising up to overcome,

in a world made on the promises once broken.

Held together this piece cuts deep inside,

screams echo through my heart once again,

life stolen, kisses of love understanding my pain.

If in my imagination all of my life can be changed,

unattainable desires left alone in my head,

being who I am and who I will always be, myself.











Johnny Newell

Closed eyes open

What can you see within closed eyes?

Is this the dream never shown behind?

Burn my flesh in the sin inside of you,

feel my heart escape your need for lust.

Taken your hands crave my soul,

in love’s point of view crying my contentment.

Black hair flowing in the winds of destiny lost,

making fairytales out of our love once again.

Dying to learn how to live as one,

under waterfalls of pain my life is gone.

Breathing only with your hand on my breast,

how is there a me if I am not with you?

Torn apart by the ages of this world I wait,

for you to open your eyes and see me again.

Falling in love means all feelings become,

in the pain of being broken, to the desire for more.

Time has change as I have you in my heart,

where fiery souls devise that which is undone.

No fear in my hands your heart will know my truth,

in your light my eyes are bright for only you.

As our death becomes our beginning in this life,

love the reason, the answers will change in time.









Johnny Newell

Shades of home

Was there ever a smile as deep as yours,

as all becomes what was meant to be.

Suns bow down to the light in your eyes,

heaven has new meaning in what is you.

I have tasted the deadliest poisons to live,

felt the icy burning of flames so cold.

Fallen from worlds to see new life,

in a forsaken heart where my eyes were opened.

No amount of sorrow to eradicate my fate,

under rainbows of black my love was discovered.

Hands of weakness rivers befalling inside,

twist of pain, tortured by demise.

Ecstasy reaching out to hold on,

letting go of myself in my heart breaking light.

Leaving depths of waters frozen in my mind,

where youth is lost in who I am now.

Pouring tears flowing river waves of sand,

in my heart where nothing matters anymore.

No tears to bleed, no hope to dream,

only a light where shades of black become my home.







Johnny Newell

Speaking ghosts

Last words of a dying man muttered silence to forget,

lips moving so still eyes looking around in regret.

Shameful life tormented by his ghosts,

only he can see what devilry was made.

On broken glass he sits under hell in his eyes,

a gift of life for most, but not in him.

A ring in his hands to let go of the pain,

sustaining life in this game of no more.

A sentence carried out under his dreams,

where the choice he made is tattooed in his heart.

Too weak to hold onto her hand as she fell,

to her death, into his hell.

Seeing her face brings more than tears to this man,

while her body plummets to the rocks below.

He cries at night whilst laying on their bed,

nightmares when awake to a song that never ends.

Screaming her name aloud for none to hear,

while he watches the video of his last words to her.

With more love in him now than he ever wanted to feel,

her ghostly smile speaks what he doesn’t want to know.

“Let me go”, she says with tears bleeding from inside,

frozen where he lay, he can’t say anything at all.

Just before his eyes close he remembers who she was,

an angel of love for a man without a soul.











Johnny Newell

Pretending life

It was in pretending that one heart was made whole,

the sweetest of dreams crying for something more.

Eyes of blue painting my green heart cold,

waiting for someone to accept who I can be.

Was it in her look that held my soul inside,

or did she just see me without seeing my face at all?

A twisted evil within the very essence in my eyes,

bleeding words on the pages of my heart.

Images pretending to hide who they are,

on the lights my shadows know your name well.

Is there truly a feeling of love or just a feeling,

in who or what I have become I see nothing.

Standing cold in fiery stares once alive,

death guides me into who I was meant to be.

Under this grave my body accepts the path,

into darkness where I was first created.

No pain to endure in times of silence lost,

held beneath of who my ghost has lied to.

Pretend no more my words painted in my heart,

where my soul lives only because my body has died.













Johnny Newell

Pagan love

If I am able and willing to fall,

what is there to keep me afloat?

As light becomes the shadows,

am I the darkness therein?

Water flowing through my soul,

impending heart of shame,

losing the grasp on myself.

In this heart you feel before you,

am I not the one who feels you?

With a soul made from your tears,

is it not I who knows your sorrow?

Flames of desire burning my will,

striving to feel your body,

conception manifested in love.

Stars shinning light from years ago,

so is it in this moment shadows rise?

Within your blood is the life you live,

am I not the life you need to survive?

Winds calling on the tips of your wings,

where we fly into dreams alike,

realization met by discovery of our hearts.

Light seeking light beyond light,

am I the one hiding in your shade?

Love deceived by deception,

who am I if not your deceiver?

Earth embraced by the very roots we are,

sprouting up in love, light, and our fall,

springing up as one tree in like mind.

Where love and pain are you and I forever.











Johnny Newell

Rose bleeding love

Death knows my name in life’s twisted game,

shading my soul is the ice in my eyes.

Left broken on the shores I cried for,

understanding only sorrow in my heart.

Reflection made unable to see my light,

falling deeper into the despair of reality.

Dreams of nightmares taking from me,

who I could see, what I can feel.

Lights are on so blind my way has fallen,

dismay tormenting my visions of trust.

Whipped by the hands of love I am slain,

for what I feel, in what I believe.

Torn flesh revealing the blood in my eyes,

unable to quench the thirst of pain.

On my knees my end starts to convey,

empty I am breaking apart to know.

Tears pour from the smiles I cannot show,

bleeding my broken heart falls to the fire.

Not inside of me this love I never knew,

flowers of death writhing in my agony.

Rose of pain my blood tasted on her lips,

a kiss of life sucking my life away.

Drowning my river my eyes cannot feel,

words spoken underneath of light and death.













Johnny Newell

Pentagram of light

Misconstrued as evil I drift aimlessly,

unaware of the pain felt within my eyes.

Crowded by people alone I stand,

looking through me the ghost I have become.

Unabated my heart pushes through,

painful expression denied by life.

Poised my stance falling no level ground,

darkness accepts me my hear falls apart.

No friend in friend steady decrease I fear,

unquenched my tears eyes shut tight.

Selling my soul for another breath to hate,

finding no answers for questions I can’t ask.

Seeking forgiveness by my own heart,

desolate soulless man agony my sorrow.

Laying motionless moving eyes upon me,

her light becomes the reason I live.

No judgment painted in her eyes,

lifting me up where I had no way.

Love forms in my heart her light,

destiny making fate my way to hope.

Blessings new meaning understanding,

in light and love I stand again.













Johnny Newell

Illusion of self imagery

In her game she is the shadow interrupted,

floating on the clouds right next to me.

Hiding from who she wants to believe,

in light her name stands for more.

Never ending in her thoughts her love,

patience falling to the hand of doom.

Silhouetted in herself she reaches high,

beseeched by goodness in feeling her fall.

She cries only in her tears I cannot see,

written in her smiles her heart so unclear.

Serene eyes of destruction demolition despair,

caressed by hands of desire she stands apart.

Which heart is left for me to take hold of,

if her disguise is masked by her disguise?

Taking time to feel what can’t be known,

hidden in white clouds her shade arouses me.

Twisted to the point of insatiable lust defiled inside,

thirst for who she wants to be my curse.













Johnny Newell

Framed beauty

Roses fill my eyes with a touch of spring calling me home,

feeling her warmth on my flesh I rise to fall away.

Pale skin seeping into my subconscious desires,

basking in the green that is her life behind her eyes.

A look my way resurrecting what died before,

touched by the magic that she lights up in my heart.

Trees kneel before her as she makes her path my own,

I am for her alone in the shadows I wait for her smile.

Lost without a way making these flowers speak her name,

killing lights and visions of what never truly was.

I am alone in her heart knowing only the love she is,

all else dies away as autumn gives way to my fall.

Singing songs her heart bares all emotions left to see,

with the light in her heaven my hell is now complete.













Johnny Newell

Going down on my dreams

Veiled in sating as black as my eyes,

she dances to my heart beating for denial.

Thorns on every rose I send to her,

bloody from the tears unable to dry.

She waits for my touch in this winter night,

speaking out in temptation my fantasies of love.

On her knees before me colored in silk,

crimson red draped in black so cold.

Filling her up with bursts of desire defiled,

held down with my hands in her hair.

She touches me softly her tongue teases my soul,

in and out of her mouth lips beautifully painted.

Scratching my legs while holding me up,

about to break I am able to bend.

Such a poisonous kiss erotic pleasures going down,

hard to breathe yet somehow I have my breath.

Reaching up her nails dig into my chest,

swirling around me her tongue petrifies my will.

In a moment so lost I am found exploding in her,

licking her lips she stares into my eyes.

I take her hand as she rises to me,

kisses me softly and guides me to hell.











Johnny Newell