Light and dark for light

Am I as dark as my heart speaks into the night,

or do I represent something I have always been afraid of?

Too much to question why I am who I was,

facing the reasons only another reason to explain.

Falling down just to get up again my way,

learning from the torment, accepting the pain.

Broken hearts have tasted the depths of hell to know,

heaven too is just a myth for weaker minds to survive.

Fear holds most down in what life calls regret,

making me rise against circumstance to make my way.

Knowing now that knowing nothing is everything to me,

fading lights calling dreams to hang on for one more show.

Illusions ghostly eyes permeating my existence,

breaking to heal finding a clear way into forever.

As I fall I see who I was before I understood,

better to love I heard, better than not at all.

Shadows rise into me, light lets go of my life,

crashing tears of brokenness hands denied destiny.

Searching endlessly covering souls as bodies rest,

vacant screams emptiness a lonely heart can die.











Johnny Newell