In hell for you

I have tried to be enough for your life,

seeing now I am nothing I give up.

Beaten to a mess of blood and tears,

cried for who I thought I could have been.

Get your hand away from me I don’t want your help,

after seeing your love I think I will let love be.

Not enjoyable the pain of never knowing understanding,

how far must I fall before you realize I have had enough?

Your words broke my heart as your kiss killed my flesh,

seeping through the cracks of destiny my pain.

Bleeding and broken before you as you smile,

like this was your plan from the start.

A ragdoll used to satisfy the hunger in your soul,

to hurt, maim, abuse without remorse.

Torn apart are the seams of my heart,

by the very love I was so afraid of before.

I know the meaning of hurt now in my sorrow,

all of the grief I had caused making my hell.

Twisted images flash from your words spoken,

ripping apart my life, showing me how little I am.

Death would be comforting to me but I was given you,

I despise each breath I am forced to take.

Your words empty now like your heart,

no way to love anything but yourself.

Fading away slowly in pain an anguishing torment,

breathing flames on my eyes burning the dreams of old.

Where love meant something more than just an illusion,

where I mattered, but where I am now only you know.











Johnny Newell