In my heart your tears

I have tried so hard to control my tears,

but as each minute passes by I break.

So lost to how I should be feeling,

so alone to this misunderstanding.

Not knowing where you are breaks my will,

each time I open my eyes your tears crush my heart.

I hear your voice in my ears reminding me of hope,

never seeing the pain, tasting only the fears.

What have I become being so far from your eyes,

who am I now that I am so destined to live?

Tears have fallen from my hands in crimson red,

sliced heart bleeding the emotions found inside.

Hiding nothing that makes sense to my eyes,

blinded by your fears crying deep within my heart.

Black portrait calling home the reasons for light,

shaking hands unable to hold onto this love.

Faster I fade into this realm known only by you,

kissed by lights my shadows hide behind your soul.

Spinning around as I fall away in this vision,

living life in the death always longed for.

Feelings crash around my thoughts as you bleed,

in my heart where your home is, in my memories still.

Waters come to me so dry soaking my eyes in you,

drowning love inside of all the things you cry for.

I want to try, I long to hold on, I can’t let go,

all of my ways are leading up to your touch.

Wearing black so beautiful is my dreams of us,

where nothing is everything we once let go of.

Keep on holding as you try to slip away,

even in your absence I am with you.

Loved by hate this illusion fades,

finding me alone in your arms.













Johnny Newell