Saying never

Never do I want to know this feeling,

seeping through my emotions.

Never wanting to know love,

pouring through me like water.

Never expecting to have expectations,

brink of resentments letting go.

Never imagining forever to start,

waking up in the arms of rest.

Never desiring to feel lust,

but then I looked into your eyes.

In all that I never wanted I have in you,

breaking me as the walls I built fall.

Seeing the start of dreams forgotten,

as I opened my reality in your arms.

Never again I have told myself to find,

how never just makes me want you even more.

Never will I fall away into a love I don’t believe in,

yet in you I just find never is beautiful.

Never will I know what it feels like to dance,

as I move with you to the music our bodies make.

Never I have said only to be shown how wrong I am,

to face this life alone in coming to understand it.

Never will I fear the waiting for something I need,

a scared little boy waiting for the touch of your love.

Never again will never be the never I see,

for in our never’ we were made to be just what we denied.

We became we.







Johnny Newell