Afraid to fall, jump

If I am afraid to fall,

why do I jump?

With wings as strong as feathers,

softly my eyes delight.

When raging waters dance,

must I sing along?

Tortured by myself,

benevolent breaking me.

Who cares with apathy screaming,

words of pleasure facing fears.

Darkly my eyes see the light,

only when I see her.

So strong my heart is weakness,

in love vulnerable soul entwined.

Agonizing trust falling forever,

flying we float to the night.

If I am so afraid of loving,

how do I show her my all?

When time fades to nothing,

how do we find the time?

I have fallen away to be caught,

seeing the feathers of hope.

Wings of evil crying beauty,

tested by life and love.

No quarter left to give,

none taken as I surrender.

The man in my mirror is gone,

who I am for her is now.

I am afraid to fall so I jump,

knowing she will catch me.

Afraid of loving I let go,

feeling all that she feels.

In my heart I now have purpose,

in her heart I am the cure.

When love and life collide,

it is us that answers truth.









Johnny Newell