Plea for life

Something inside of my heart reminds me of death,

so dark and twisted from the past I made.

Watching people from a distance unnoticed I fell,

into what I now see as the loneliness within me.

Untouched by life was this death I always sought,

how could I ever live if I was unable to die?

Never wanting more than this feeling of being apart,

pretending to care when in my heart I knew nothing.

There have been tears in my eyes to much to control,

how every feeling hit me at once leaving me on the ground.

Even in the light there was always something for me,

too blind to see or maybe I just didn’t want to.

Chills run through my body as I writhe in love’s disguise,

each thought or whisper holds the name of my heart.

In all the dreams I have despised my life making sense,

no where to run to but down deeper into hell.

No light left on to see who it is I have become,

only fearful memories of what I chose to forget.

Somewhere in there is my reason to bleed the night away,

wanting to die undead my vampire heart denied.

Soft kiss on the lips of angels crying hope for my soul,

waiting as I watch the world slip away from my eyes.

Covered by fate my destiny has made her way with me,

I sleep no more, I cry to survive, I long to live before I die.









Johnny Newell