Depression

In a hole I fade away into all darkness,

unable to cry, unable to move.

Words written in my blood to express,

the feelings I feel as my world dies.

I am alone in myself with no way out,

no love left to know in my reasoning forgotten.

Trying to scream out the pain that consumes me,

I am broken by the decisions I made yesterday.

My arms are sliced open revealing my soul,

torched by the images burning in my heart.

My eyes are blinded by the feelings I see,

twisted form of mangled love letting me go.

I cried for who I might have been before,

all that I see now is emptiness within.

Nothing left to understand as I die,

to this life where love has no room for me.

Loneliness takes me into the light of regret,

forcing painful images flashing screen of hate.

To bleed would show I was alive,

no blood left to express myself.

I am trying to cry but the rain washes me out,

shaking my head disturbed life letting go.

As I fall away into my shell empty and alone,

misunderstood child becomes man with no hope.











Johnny Newell